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Sunday, 27 January 2013

ANNOYING~


I was about to update a blog but suddenly nothing new strike my mind. There’s nothing for me to update to. Got no idea at all. huhuu~
life can be VERY annoying sometime,eyh?
Nothing new happened, just normal and usually thing, nothing special. Allowance is not coming out yet and I keep gaining weight to the size of baby killer whale.
     Can I put dots as my feeling?
I dun know what to describe. There’s something I wanna tell but I can’t ‘cause it will give weird impression about me and all people around me will know about it too. Hurmm..
     It is a burden when you have a crisis but you can’t even say a word to any people. I wish I cud just talk about it freely as it will definitely lighten my heart. *sigh*
     I wish and wish and wish I could laugh like normal people. :’(
wanna smile tooo!!!! X( 
wanna laugh brightly too... X(((((


Friday, 4 January 2013


Boring gila kot minggu ni. Aiseyman! No homework, no assignment. This is IPG life actually, at the beginning of semester; you are as free as bird. By end of semester, you won’t be able to lay your head on proper pillow.
Here I am, stucking my finger on keyboards, passing time.

I want to share about this band. I love their songs, I love their voices, I love their synchronization.

.ONE DIRECTION.

I used to listen to their songs when I am nervous while having test, when I am alone and scare, they give me strength.

Haha~ strength ke? Sebenarnya, aku boring, sebab dorang ada lagu baru, dat’s why I listen to their songs. Till one day, I will be bored jugak. Lagipun lagu dorang macam best, tak heavy or tak slow sangat. Tapi ada je yang slow2, yang bingit sikit music, tapi most of the time, their songs is nice.

These are some of their songs which I favour
~Little thing
~I wish
~Last first kiss
~Same mistakes
~They don’t know about us
~Up all night
~Heart Attack
~C’mon c’mon
~Rock me
And so on.

One Direction was a X-Factor US participant, they didn’t win the competition but they DID actually become world famous boy band. Some US singers such as The Wanted and Justin Bieber hold grudges against them but what to do, 1D really is a great boy band. They sing very well.

Which of them is my favourite? Well, I prefer Zayn Javadd Malik or Zayn Malik. But my friend, Preet said he looks like a gay. Kuang ajar punya kawan. Haha. Zayn Malik kemain lagi handsome, kau cakap dia gay. He has mixed heritage, Pakistani father and local mother. He is muslim but muslim jenis apa, I don’t know. He got tattoos, he got earrings, he played with dogs, he drinks and do what Islam forbids. Still, he has lovely voice!
Zayn Malik on live while we're young mv
Next, I like Harry Styles although I totally hate he’s into relationship with Taylor Swift! What on earth?! I can’t wait to see dorang putus, nak tgok lagu apa yang Taylor Swift akan tulis kat dia. Minah tu kuang asam tulis lagu We Are Never Getting Back Together untuk Taylor Lautner skrg ni dia tengah seduce Harry. Tau la Harry kaya, famous, and obviously ada 6 packs. Amazingly, Harry got sexy voice. Serak2 sikit. Best! Walaupun muka dia macam kanak2 spastic sikit. Haha~Sorry Harry!

Harry Styles

Liam, Niall and Louis the other three.

Well, you guys should try and listen to their songs!


One Direction 

Tuesday, 1 January 2013

things happen.


New Year Resolution

Be serius on S-T-U-D-Y.
Speed up READING SKILL.
Be nice to people (change attitude).
100% solat ( especially subuh during weekend).
Have a driving licence.
Go to Sekayu.
No to skip classes and assembly!

It’s New Year again. Is it kind of bullshit or miracle going to be happened ahead? I don’t know. It’s Allah secret. As two days passed, I haven’t yet satisfied for all what happened.

You know why? I have to separated with my previous mates, Sarah and Sheda and going to be in a new group. I didn’t deny that I have to let myself out from my comfort zone and yet I am not ready to do this. I have to but still can’t let this mind straight. Therefore, I am quite frustrated and angry right now.

I hope this is the right path for me, yang Allah dah tetapkan. I don’t know future. I dun know the hikmah yang Allah tetapkan untuk aku, and yet I hope everything will be just fine.

jangan tinggal daku.... :'(

Monday, 24 December 2012

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger

If is a code for never.

Miracle is another word for hard work.

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It is true that if would never happen in our life. Whatever things you wish as a if, it ain't work out, right?

Miracle... Everybody wants a miracle in their life, right? But, it is true that miracle is another name of hard work  If you don't try, you won't succeed. If you don't succeed, there will be no miracle.



Sunday, 23 December 2012

Day by day...




Leave
Yeah, Finally I realize that I am nothing without you
I was so wrong, forgive me

My broken heart like a wave
My shaken heart like a wind
My heart vanished like smoke
It can't be removed like a tattoo
I sigh deeply as if a ground is going to cave in
Only dusts are piled up in my mind
Say goodbye

Yeah, I thought I wouldn't be able to live even one day without you
But somehow I managed to live on longer than I thought
You don't answer anything as I cry out "I miss you"
I hope for a vain expectation but now it's useless

What is it about that person next to you, did she make you cry?
Dear can you even see me, did you forget completely?
I am worried, I feel anxiety because I can't get close nor try to talk to you
I spend long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts a thousand times

Don't look back and leave
Don't find me again and live on
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day
Oh man I cry, cry
You're my all, say goodbye... 

If we pass by each other on the street
Act like you didn't see me and go the way you were walking to
If you keep thinking about our past memories
I might go look for you secretly

Always be happy with him, so I won't ever get a different mind
Even smallest regret won't be left out ever
Please live well as if I should feel jealous
You should always be like that bright sky, like that white cloud
Yes, you should always smile like that as if nothing happened

I hope your heart feels relieved
Please forget about me and live on
Those tears will dry completely
As time passes by
It would've hurt less if we didn't meet at all
Hope you will bury our promise of being together forever baby
I pray for you

Oh man I cry, cry
You're my all, say goodbye, bye
Oh my love don't lie, lie
You're my heart, say goodbye





















p/s: sometimes I feel like giving up upon us. *sigh* :'(

Thursday, 20 December 2012

CASA IMPIAN :)


Assalamualaikum WBT
Dengan Nama Allah Yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang...

Anda dengar tak apa yang saya dengar sekarang ni? Bunyi suara cengkerik melagukan lagu lullaby untuk kita... Setiap malam menghiasi alam tanpa jemu, supaya pagi yang tenang lagi selamat ini digunakan dengan manfaat oleh mereka yang mengejar tahajud.

Malam ni, aku nak amibil mood tenang lagi mendamaikan ini untuk menceritakan satu antara sejuta angan-angan yang aku ciptakan.

Untuk pengetahuan korang, aku suka sangat, sangat sangat dan sangat suka keadaan yang tenang lagi damai macam ni. Senyap dan sunyi, tak panas dan tak sejuk, sedang-sedang aja... Aku tak suka sangat keadaan bising dan bingit. Sebab tu aku tak suka pergi pasar malam or kenduri kahwin, sebab suasananya sangat meriah dan membingitkan telinga walaupun kadang-kadang menyeronokkan.

Kalau suasana tenang macam ini, aku dapat tidur dengan mudah, dan juga aku dapat membaca serta mendapat idea dengan senang... aku jugadapat buat apa aja yang aku suka tanpa ada suara orang lain yang membingitkan telinga atau akan suruh aku buat apa-apa kerja yang aku tak suka. Aku tak suka sebenarnya orang arah aku,,, rasa macam tak ikhlas pun ada buat kerja macam tu. By the way, I am happy this way.

Aduyaii.. panjangnya mukadimmah. Sebenarnya, aku dapat idea nak cakap pasal MY SWEET HOME!!! Haaa~ rumah idaman aku...

What? How? When? Which?
Fuuuhhh~ Alrighty, my dreaming home is a cottage!
One of the cottage

Haaa??? Korang tahu tak cottage tu hape? Cottage tu adalah rumah yang macam orang kenit duduk dalam cerita Snow White tu... cottage jugak dirujuk kepada rumah yang berada di luar bandar ataupun hutan.

Bagi aku, penting untuk aku hidup dalam keadaan aman. Cottage aku tu nanti,,, aku nak biarlah diperbuat daripada kayu, atap dia,, macam kalis bunyi ker? Tak nak lah atap zink,, bising kot kalau hujan. Lepas tu,, aku nak rumah aku tu jauh daripada jalan raya, macam rumah aku kat balai maras ni. Senyap je, xder bunyi kenderaan malam-malam. Pastu,, aku nak letak buai kat luar rumah tu.. Petang-petang, aku boleh main buai or baca buku dekat buai tu. Tidur kat buai tu. Aku nak letak juga meja yang daripada simen buatan tu. Yang macam ala-ala taman gitu. Bolehlah aku buat kerja sekolah or semak buku anak murid aku kat situ.

Dalam cottage tu pulak, aku nak ada dapur, 1 bilik air, 3 bilik tidur, 1 stor simpanan dan yang paling penting, 1 ruang tamu. Why 3 bilik tidur? Aku berangan 1 master room aku dengan suami aku, 2 lagi untuk anak-anak. Cehhh~ aku nak kahwin ker? Teeettt!!! Tidak terbuka pintu hati aku. Kalau tak pun,, insha Allah,, aku akan amik anak angkat jek macam pasangan Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie.

Ok, let’s see what so beautiful and awesome about cottage.
simple yet awesome!!! :):):)
just exactly like what am i dreaming about... :)
P/S: I wish to have my cottage near a seaside and i wish to spend my time there with my soldier of life. J
If forever it takes, then forever it will be. I would live only with memories.

Sunday, 26 August 2012

...

the moment when you leave me alone, I know there's nothing else left behind. The world seems to be crushed onto my head and huge hole has been punched through my heart. I have no right to hold onto you.. There's nothing I could do.. You have left me behind and I was alone, crying in the rain....

there is nothing i could do anymore... :'(